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been a while
Apr. 19th, 2009 | 09:15 pm
mood: 
pissed off
music: talk shit- millonaires
so for the past however many months, melanie and i broke up back in aug. since then i had my 23rd bday which i didnt do much. i joined the army jan 06 09-april 09. i was discharged for choking 3 times then gaggin for 2 hours. they couldnt figure it out so they said i had axiety. i met some awesome new friends and had a good time. since ive been back home, ive been spending my time seeing friends and havin fun.i got a new tattoo on my arm. i ran tipsy at the cross and hills. i bought a 88 ford bronco 2 yesterday morning from a crazy drunk biker dude but he was alright. i like it. today i waited on 2 different people only to have them flake on me. it sucks! i hate flakes. so i sat here all day. fun huh?
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crushed hurt heartbroken and dead inside
Aug. 22nd, 2008 | 08:32 am
mood: 
crushed
im done
fuck life
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free computers
Aug. 14th, 2008 | 11:55 pm
mood: 
drained
music: already over-red
mel woke me up when she woke up sayin its not tomorrow that shes coming here its next friday. DAMN IT! its ok though. i went back to sleep then i woke up and called then text her and she was with cameron gettin her aunt her college books. then she walked home then got oneline and we talked for a bit then her friend called so i was kinda blah cause she seemed busy. then she called me on the way to work. then she had to go. i took tipsy to the barranca and ran her around. then i watched tv and stuff. then mel got off work and called me till she got home. then when my dad got home her ran to the trash thing and found a computer someone threw out. then we played risk and im close to winning. marys down to 3 territories and my dad has like 6-8 i dont remember. then as we were playin someone outfront walked by with another computer and threw it away so my dad grabbed that one and took the parts he wanted. then i watched tv and tried to text and call mel with no answer. i thought she passed out. finally she called sayin she was watchin tv so ya. we talked for a few then she was tired so she went to bed. we text for a few but she ended up passin out on me i guess. after that i ran tipsy on my bike then when i got home i played my dad and mary cards. then played my game and now im gonna make toast then go to bed. i miss mel and wish it was still tomorrow when she was comin lol oh well, just means next week i have to hold her longer to make up for it
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still here thinkin lol
Aug. 13th, 2008 | 11:03 pm
mood: 
excited
music: losing grip-avril
mel woke me up a few times today but i was half asleep so i was doin that tired talk like mmrrbmtk ,eomvg ya... i was so tired lol then i woke up and tried to call her and finally she picked up but snapped at me cause she was busy. so ya that sucked. we kinda argued, kinda. wasnt major just kinda sucked lol then we talked for a bit and she said sorry for being mean and then she went to work. i went to see my mom and cayla was there. then i went to the mall and applied at a snowboard/skate place. then mel called me as i was leavin there and we talked for a few. then she went back to work and i headed home and we text for a few till she was off. then she called till she got home. we text for a bit when she was watchin her movie and i played risk. im takin over the world lol i have 3 continents now lol yay! then i tried to call mel but she was watchin tv. then she called me and we talked for a while and said what we wanted and talked about friday. its comin up fast lol less then 2 days. YAY!!!!!!!!! after mel went to bed i ordered pizza cause im a fat ass. then after i laid in bed thinking about friday and all the sweet stuff i can do and will do for mel. im sooooo happy!!!! i love her sooooo fuckin much!!! I LOVE YOU MEL!!!!!!
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weee
Aug. 12th, 2008 | 12:33 am
mood: 
weird
music: low-cracker
today mel woke me up off and on sayin she was babysitting the cutest lil girl. not fair!!! made me want a baby. gotta wait though. i went to sleep then she woke me up and i got online and we talked for a while till she had to go to work. then my mom called sayin she was bored so we went bowling. it was fun but i havnt been in a while and neither has she so we both sucked a lil. then afterwards mel called me when she got off work and we talked till she got home. then she had to go. i played my dad and mary risk and im taking over more and more places so far im winning. whoo hoo. i think they dont like playin anymore or today was blah for them. after that mel got online and we talked then text then she called. we finally talked about what exactly we wanted to do and ya lol were in that mood. then she got tired and went to bed. after that i ran tipsy then when i got back home ive been sittin here thinking about melanie and stuff. like lots. ask me tomorrow babe. i miss her. i say that everynight i know, but i mean i reallllllllly fuckin miss her!
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god i can be an ass sometimes
Aug. 11th, 2008 | 11:45 pm
mood: crazy
music: no rain-blind melon
today mel woke me up at 5:30 sayin she was on the metro lol then she let me sleep then text and called a few times till i finally got up and she was shopping around target. she got a dvd luggage and headphones. see i remember shit haha we talked till she got home then we talked online. then she had a headache and wanted to lay down. i wasbeing an ass and wouldnt let her just go. i was being stupid. so she finally left and i went to see my mom since mel mentioned pretzels lol i got one too. then i came home and played with tipsy and watched tv. then played my dad and mary risk for like an hour and a half. then mel called me and we talked about what she did today. then she still wasnt feeling well so she wanted to go to bed. of course i had to be an ass again and bitch, then text after she left which upset her. i was being stupid askin weird questions. im still sorry mel. ill work on being better with that shit. after she went to bed i wanted to play more risk but my dad and mary were in bed already. so i ran tipsy and ya. now im tired and miss mel like fuckin crazy.
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BLAH with a capitol BLAH!!!!
Aug. 10th, 2008 | 10:44 pm
mood: optimistic
music: prodigal son-sevendust
i woke up to nothing. i called mel and nothing, text mel and nothing. finally after like 2 hours someone else texts me sayin shes not coming. after a while mel finally told me she wasnt. we fought and blah blah blah. went on for a while. she said she feels like she wasnt good enough for me. and that she shouldnt be talkin to me and felt unwanted....mel i will always i repeat ALWAY!!!!!!!! want you. that will never change. so her uncle picked her up and we kinda text as she was heading home. we were still eh. then when she got home she called and we talked for a bit. then she had to go to eat ice cream. after a while she called back and we talked. shes comin friday with her uncle. im still getting her and coming here. so ya. im happy im still with her at least. ya it kinda sucks shes not here now but at least were still together. i miss her really bad!!!! after we talked we said sweet stuff which was good to hear then she went to bed. after that i ran tipsy then went and got a burger. now here i am. joy. i miss mel
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blah kinda
Aug. 9th, 2008 | 11:35 pm
mood: 
bouncy
music: psycho-puddle of mudd
i woke up and called mel but no answer. so i went to see my mom then apply at a few places. then called mel again. she kinda was upset cause she was relaxing so we fought then she said she wasnt coming here but instead goin to hb. that upset me so we went on and on. i washed my cloths and she went to work then she promised shed give me a chance so tomorrow everything still is gonna happen. i get her and everything. im soooooo fuckin excited. she called when she got off on her way home and then she let me go. i watched tv till she called again and we talked for a few till she got tired and went to bed. i played my dad and mary cards but mary lost again so we decided to get risk. it was like 10pm before i got beack then it took like and hour and a half to figure out how to play. then we played 2 rounds like turns till my dad wanted to go to bed lol so its downstairs to be continued later lol i was invading places. whoo hoo. i miss mel. i really hope tomorrow goes well and she makes it here with me so i can do my surprises. hehe
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2 more days
Aug. 8th, 2008 | 12:16 am
mood: excited
music: man in the box-alice in chains
i woke up today and called mel who was waiting to see what her grade was from the clas. he didnt post it like he said he would. we talked for a few then i got online and we talked. she seemed kinda mad and was kinda snappin at me but i was being stupid askin where she went so ya. its ok. then she went to work and we text for a bit. i watched tv and played with tipsy for a while then made food as mel called me. we talked then she had to go help people. i ate then went and applied down the street at a few places. then when i got home i watched tv till mel called me when she was off. then she had to go. said she text in a lil. well she fell asleep which is ok cause she had a looong day. she called me back and we talked about sunday and what we wanted. then she went to bed. after that mary tought me and my dad a new card game which out of all the times my dad won 6 times, i won 4 and mary won once lol she said shes not teachin us anymore games. then i ran tipsy on my bike and text mel. now i just miss mel soooooo bad. 2 more nights and ill be sleepin next to her holding her close in my arms. god i cant wait!!!
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past few days
Aug. 7th, 2008 | 12:05 am
mood: 
loved
music: vapor-necessary response
2 nights ago i went to bryces to play cards with him luke and chris. it was alright. played texas hold em. i called mel late that night to tell her i love her. then after a bit i went home. yesterday mel and i were talkin and i made a joke i shouldnt have and she got mad then fell asleep on me so i cried a lil cause i thought she was seriously pissed. today mel woke me up sayin she was goin to work to hang out then turns out she ended up workin. so i went back to sleep. then she woke me up when she went to cvs. i wasnt feelin well kinda so i laid in bed for a while and just relaxed today. watched tv and what not. i tried to call and text mel cause she said shed be off at 4 so 1 my time and got nothing till like 7. she was busy and i was being stupid texting wayyyy too much. sorry babe! its cause i love you lol then we text for a while then she called and we talked. told her what im makin for her. she liked the idea. then she was tired so she went to bed. then i ran tipsy and watched more tv and text mel my sex text lol hehehe now i miss her like fuckin crazy.
melanie ann, im sooooo crazy in love with you. i love you so much babe. i cant wait till your mrs upton and i realy cant wait till sunday. im gonna hold you and not let go and kiss you and tell you i love you and everything. finally get to cuddle!!! yay!!!
melanie ann, im sooooo crazy in love with you. i love you so much babe. i cant wait till your mrs upton and i realy cant wait till sunday. im gonna hold you and not let go and kiss you and tell you i love you and everything. finally get to cuddle!!! yay!!!
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Aug. 4th, 2008 | 11:02 pm
mood: 
horny
music: learning to fly-foo fighters
today mel woke me up before class and we talked for a few then she let me go. then she called me after sayin theres no class tomorrow so shes happy. then i went back to sleep till she got home then she got online and we talked till she had to work. she went in early. then i called bryce and watched star wars then got food and then played pool and went to my house. i felt like shit cause mel tried callin and texting me but i never got them so i felt realllly bad. im sorry babe!!! then bryce and i played rock band and gta4 then he went home and soon as i got home mel got online so we talked more and said sweet stuff. then we text till she called. we talked about sunday and what we wanted to do. i sooooo cant wait!!!! i love you baby!!!! then after she went to bed i played my dad and mary cards and now here i am wanting it to be morning so i can know what mels surpirse for me is. i reaaaaaaalllllly want it. i cant wait!!!!
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whoo hoo
Aug. 3rd, 2008 | 12:44 am
mood: horny
music: creep-stone temple piolets
mel woke me up today so i could do the thing i promised her. she loved it like i knew she would. i teased her real bad but in a good way. she liked it and got all in that mood and so was i. then we talked when she went to work. then i went to sleep. then i woke up and called bryce, no answer. so i played blokus with my dad and mary till finally he answered so i went over there and hung out for a bit. they got a new dog. then his uncle and aunt and everyone showed up and i felt akward so i was like ehhh. then i came home and mel called me and we talked till she got home then we got online and talked. i missed her bad! we talked about next week and happy sweet stuff. then she called then got back online, then called and so on lol made me happy. then we talked on the phone for a while and said we wanted to lay on each other. then i got on my cam and did wayyyyyy more teasing. i love you babe! we were both realllllly in that mood so i did it for a while and we talked. then she went to bed. and now i cant stop thinking about her. i wish i could turn around and have her in my bed right now. i miss her!!!!
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good bad good
Aug. 2nd, 2008 | 01:30 am
mood: horny
music: south side-moby and gwen
mel woke me up today and told me to get online so i did and we talked for a while. she was askin if we could see her uncle play in 2 weeks so that made me happy. then we were looking at huge houses lol huge! like 30million dallor houses lol then she wanted to marry me and ya. she called and and then we got online and went back and forth all day. sayin sweet stuff and everything. i loved it. then i found some old pics and she got really upset so we fought for a while which sucked really bad. we fought for a while but then finally everything was ok. and we were sweet again so i was happy. i was back on cam and we were sayin what we wanted and god it gets better each night. i swear it does lol im happy. then i showed her stuff and tomorrow im gonna do my surprise for her and then after im gonna see bryce since hes in town. but id rather see mel lol i miss her soooo bad. after she left mary and my dad had me talk to them for like and hour and a half. i just wanted to sleep lol it sucked
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horn dog
Aug. 1st, 2008 | 11:55 pm
mood: horny
music: glycerine-bush
today i woke up and called mel right when she got out of the shower lol good timing. then she went to target and looked around and what not and we talked. then she went to kohls to get sun glasses. then she went back home and we were online talking and she showed me cute pictures of her. i loved them. and we asked more questions and stuff. then she wasnt feeling well and wanted to lay down, i took it the wrong way and was kinda being an ass, then she said we were over and she didnt want me or to be with me. that pretty much killed me. like ya. i kept calling and we talked and i was just being mean not letting her go. my fault. so ya. but finally we talked and fixed things, im not gonna do that anymore, i shouldnt have in the 1st place. and babe, im still sooooooo sorry for that. please dont hate me. but after that we talked more and were happy and we were online doodling lol i drew our satan spawn kids and she laughed. i love her laugh. then after a while she called and i walked to the park and we asked more things and said what we wanted and stuff. then we got back online and i was on my cam and ya. then she called and i did what she thought i wouldnt...HA! then we talked more about what we wanted but she was dead tiiiired so i let her go. but now i really really miss her.
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good day
Jul. 31st, 2008 | 10:15 am
mood: horny
today mel woke me before class and after she got there she said the guy left a note sayin he wasnt gonna be there. she ended up texting and callin me all morning so i ended up stayin awake cause i wanted. when she got home we talked online before she went to work and we were both reallllly horny lol we talked about everything we wanted and ya. i was on my cam for her. then got off to go to work. so i played my game and kyle pissed me off a lil. but oh well. i went and saw my mom at her work and eate. then mel was off work and when she got home we got back online. and we asked a looot of good questions. and we talked about things we wanted to so. and a lot about sex. lol then she called me and we talked for a bit on the phone. we asked more questions and ya lol then after that we got back online and i was cam again showing her me. we were both reaaaallllyy like that lol then she went to bed after we talked a lil more. then she went to sleep. then i played my game and kyle fixed me in the game.
side note: melanie ann johnson is the fuckin most incredible girl i know. shes everything to me. i cant wait till the 10th so i can fianlly hold her and catch her and tell her i love her and kiss her.i really wanna shw her how much she means to me. and ive been thinking about things i wanna do with her so im more in that mood and i want to share that with her cause only she can. i love you melanie!!! i wanna marry you! and have babies! and grow old with you!
side note: melanie ann johnson is the fuckin most incredible girl i know. shes everything to me. i cant wait till the 10th so i can fianlly hold her and catch her and tell her i love her and kiss her.i really wanna shw her how much she means to me. and ive been thinking about things i wanna do with her so im more in that mood and i want to share that with her cause only she can. i love you melanie!!! i wanna marry you! and have babies! and grow old with you!
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miss you!!!!
Jul. 30th, 2008 | 12:16 am
mood: 
sleepy
music: dont speak-no doubt
mel woke me up before and after class then i was still tired so she let me go till she got home. then she woke me up sayin get online so i did and we talked for a while. then she had to get ready for work and on her way to work she got really mad at me and hung up on me and said fuck you and ya. no fun. then she called back fianlly and we were talking and we were ok. then she went to work and then i showered and shaved. she text me talking about a new sexual thing we wanna do. yay. then i apllied online at blockbuster cause it says they are hiring. then mel got off work and called me on the way home. then when she got home she had to go like normal. so i watched tv. then she got online and we talked and i showed her some dresses i liked, then she wanted to leave but didnt want to talk so we went on about that. then she left and we text till she called. she was just in pain cause ya, that time so its ok. she was sorry for earlier so im happy. then she went to bed and after a bit i ran tipsy on my bike then played my game. now im tired and missing mel bad.
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earthquake
Jul. 29th, 2008 | 01:32 am
mood: tired
today mel woke me up before school and we talked for a bit ten i went to sleep then she called after and we talked then i went back to bed till she got home then she called me sayin she was goin to her work to get pants from her boss to return. then she went to kolhs and returned them and bought some cloths for herself. then as i was sitting here i was like babe i think were havin an earthquake and ya we were lol it was a 5.4 and it kinda shook but wasnt too bad. it was kinda fun lol then mel went to target and got snacks and pens and we talked till she got home then she had to go. then i ran tipsy down at the field. she had fun then i played my game and what not till mel called me back at night and we talked for a while then when we text we asked a few questions but then she passed out on me i guess. punk! then i played more games and now im gonna go to bed.
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uh huh
Jul. 28th, 2008 | 11:18 pm
mood: loved
today mel woke me up sayin she didnt feel too good. so we talked for a few then she went to class then called me after. we talked on her way home but she let me go cause she was in pain. then she called me a bit after and told me to get online so we talked for a while and then she went to lay down then do homework. so i took tipsy on a run and took a pic of tipsy for mel. then i went home and played my game and made food and took a good pic for mel which she loved lol she things im seeeeexy hehehe i like that she does. makes me feel good. then after i watched tv for a bit she text me for a bit sayin all that and being really sweet to me. i love her for it. then she called and we talked about babies and stuff like that and just were really sweet to each other and it made me miss her and want her here that much more. god im soooo in love with her. after she went to bed i sat here and watched tv and then went to get donuts with tipsy. whoo hoo. i didnt even finish them. joy
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blah
Jul. 27th, 2008 | 10:26 pm
mood: 
blah
music: long road to ruin-foo fighters
mel woke me up before work and we talked for a few then i went back to sleep. then i woke up and showered and mel text me for a bit. i laid in bed watchin tv then i went and got tipsy food and treats and mel called me as i was at the 99 cent store. then i came home and played my game till mel got off work. she called and we talked for a few and she was hot so she let me go and said shed call when she got home. but never called. so i watched tv and played my game then i tried to call her a few times but got nothing. finally she called and we talked for a lil before she got tired so she went to bed. but she wanted me to text her the normal text and i did but she never text me back. so ya. then i rented some game which kinda sucks. so this sucks
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good day
Jul. 26th, 2008 | 12:20 am
mood: horny
music: drown you out-crossfade
mel woke me up sayin she was called into work early so we talked for a few then i went back to bed, then she called on her way to cvs. then i went back to bed. then i finally got up when she called sayin she was goin shopping for her boss and herself. we talked till she got there then she left a few times to try on and buy the cloths. then we talked till she got to work. after she had to go. then i went to see my mom for her break and talked to her. after that i came back home and watched tv and played with tipsy till mel got off then she called me and we talked for a bit then got online and we asked more good questions and both were in that mood. then she called me and we talked for a bit. then after i got back online and went on cam and ya lol then she called and went to bed. i love her soooo much. then i played my dad and mary cards. mary won again this time. joy. i miss mel sooooo bad